As you can see from the title, I wish I was emotionless...
Why? You may ask...
It's because I can't do anything about the pain and the anger... I dont feel so much of the pain anymore... I feel more of the anger. I thought I would be ready to see her face but it stung a little when I saw her the first time today... Then after that it was ok... Yin Ling, Rachel and Roze-Nn kept asking me:'Why?'..... When clearly I wasn't ready to talk about it... Luckily Rachel was observant and kind to stop asking after her first attempt... Then Yin Ling stopped after BM... But Roze-Nn... She just wouldn't stop asking... And every single time she asked, I felt the pain...
And so... In conclusion, I wish i was emotionless... Because if I were, I wouldn't be able to feel anything... No pain, no anger, no happiness, no mercy, no love, nothing! Just like a robot that serves his master... Forever loyal due to the lack of artificial intellegence.
Word of advice for my beloved... Please dont worry about me. Worry for yourself before you worry for anyone else. Just remember that I am always around if you need help, no matter what you need, Im sure I'll be able to give it.
To all of my friends,
If at anytime you were to need help and you need to talk to someone, you may call me. I am always by my phone. And Im a very very light sleeper. So even if you call or sms me at 4am I will wake up... Best that you call... (For precautions) That's all. Thank you for reading. Goodbye for now.
