Friday, September 25, 2009

Yet another bad day

I dont know whether it's me or whatever... But I always have the worst times during the holidays... I wish I knew what is the cause for my misery... Wait, I do know... And the cause sucks. Cause without it, I would be a particularly happy person. The cause isn't anything that has to do with my lovelife. It's got everything to do with my past. Some people might know what Im talking about. Most wouldn't. And I can't really explain it on this blog... Too long of a story...
So that is all for today. I wish for everyone to have a good night and a good weekend. Bye.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

EMO DAY

I feel bloody emo today... No idea why... Nobody knew that I was cause I put up a false front so that Declan, Chee Seng and Gavin wouldn't know. Pro right? Im actually pretty good at putting up a false front but for the right reasons. Unlike SOMEONE I know. Im sure SOMEONE would know that it's him/her. Maybe it's because I have been thinking about HER the whole day today? Maybe... And maybe not... But I have been thinking about her the whole day today. I wish I could see you right now... I miss you alot... Should I try to forget you? I could if I wanted to. Cause I have done that to someone before. I almost managed to forget you, but the fact that I have been thinking about you so much today proved the fact that it's impossible for me to forget you. Forget HIM, or at least dont kill me everytime you bring up a topic about HIM... You have no idea how much pain I feel whenever you talk about HIM...
I hope you realise how I feel about you and that I can't forget you. Please make the correct choice.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Im Sorry

Im sorry Ken Yoong. I didn't know that I hurt you that badly. But you were right about one thing. If I had known how you felt at the time, I would have called IT off. But would it have mattered? Cause IT was heading into a road of doom already. You should have told me earlier. That could have saved us both from being hurt so badly. You should have told me yourself too... LOL! Cause when I was told by your messenger, I was furious that you didn't tell me yourself... But what's past has past. No point in regreting it. I hope you aren't hurting as bad as then. I wish you good luck, my good friend.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Disturbed

I was disturbed by a certain dream a few nights ago... I saw my life get destroyed by one guy... He took the girl that I love so much away from me. I woke up with tears already running down my face. I don't hate that guy. It's just that I wish I never met him... Then at least I could think that I might be better than him. But the fact is, since he and I are acquaintances, I know it as a fact that he has a better character, better looks, better everything. I realise now, that I should give up right now. But chances are, I won't be able to. No matter how hard I pray, I can never be with you.