I just want you to know how I feel

I dont know what's wrong with me today. I feel really weird. I have so many questions that I want to ask you, yet Im scared to ask them. Haha. But oh well, guess they're questions that I dont need to know the answer to...

I've always thought the moon was an amazing thing. But ever since I was 8 or 9, I've called her Lady Moon. And I've tried my best to catch her every night. There has never been a night where I didn't look for her. I find the lady amazing and beautiful. She lights up the darkness of the night, she brings people home and seeing her at her full makes me happy. Why am I suddenly saying this out of nowehere? Because I think YOU, are more amazing and more beautiful than anything and anyone I have ever met. Call me naive, call me stupid, call me crazy, I dont care! You might not believe me when I say this, but you are amazing and beautiful. More than Lady Moon. And you should know, that Lady Moon has never lost to anyone in my eyes before. Besides my mom of course. Haha. But you, you've changed me. I dont care if people say that Im different and all. Because face it, IM HAPPY! For the first time in a long time too. I haven't sulked for a month, which is a very long time for me. And it's all thanks to you.

When I see you, my heart races with time, making the world around me slow down. When you leave, I feel like holding you in my arms and never letting go. When Im with you, and only you, I feel like I have nothing to hide. No secrets to keep. When Im not talking to you, I actually go through physical discomfort. Weird? I believe so. But most importantly, when I see you I think to myself: There's the most amazing person I have ever met.

So tell me, what did you think of me that night, when I sang to you under the night sky while Lady Moon was watching? What did you feel? Because I've never seen you with that smile before. And I want to see it more.

I wont let anyone crush your world. I will make sure you keep smiling, one way or another. I want to see that beautiful smile that you allowed me to see. That one smile which makes my fire burn high up to the sky.

Most of you already know who Im talking about. Most of you would think Im naive, or crazy. Afew of you even said that Im gonna get myself hurt. Even I think that when Im older, I'll be laughing about my words now. But I dont care about that anymore. If I feel this way about her, then Im gonna make sure the world knows how I feel about her.

So I wanna tell you now. That I want to make you as happy as you make me. I know I can do it. And I will do it. Somehow. That's a promise I make to you. And I won't take no for an answer. Haha

If you see my girl,

Just tell her I miss her smile.

And tell her I love her.

A great day that started with a great morning

So today I went to Rachel's church for service, if Im not wrong, that's what it's called. Watching her play made me feel weird. Haha.

Honestly, I DID feel a little lost. But it was fine after Declan reached there. Thanks Declan. Overall, the morning started off great. I believe everyone should understand why. Haha.

When I walked home, my parents were out. My sister was sleeping. Had the house all to myself. Studied abit, then went to the com. And yes, I DO study. Just not alot. My attention span for self studying is VERY low. When my mom came back, she gave me the best news she has ever given within the past 4-5 months I believe. She told me that my uncle's family is coming over. So that means my cousin sisters, yes, the ones who are ALWAYS right about me, are coming over lunch. They know EVERY aspect of what's happening in my life.

I love them alot. Haven't really had the chance to spend much time with them lately cause they're always busy with college and uni and stuff. So their timing to go back to Nilai is always not in sync with my family. Hope I get to talk to them later. It's gonna be FUN! Hehe...

OH OH!!! I FINALLY FOUND MY PHONE'S HEADSET! After 3 months of searching for it, I finally found it! It was in the pants which I wore to the service this morning! I only noticed it was in there after I emptied my pockets but still felt something. Then I realized that it was there! In that one pocket, FOR 3 MONTHS! Even went into the washing machine though... But they still work fine! Haha. Amazingly, both my phone and headset are VERY water-proof. Considering that I've dropped my phone into pools, ponds, rivers,etc quite afew times before. So yes, my day is going well.

Best part of it all, Im starting to lose that stupid fear. Im gonna make it. I know I will. And knowing that I have people behind my back is gonna help me through this.

Time to cook. Need to show my cousins that I cook BETTER than ALL 3 of them! MUAHAHAHA!!!!