Stupid dreams....

Had the same dream over and over again for the past 3-4 nights or so... Pisses me off whenever I think about it... Cause I couldn't burst in any way I wanted during camp and now Im just too tired to do anything about it...

But Im sure there are people having a life that sucks much more right now. So I'll stay happy with whatever I have now...

Why do I keep feeling this way?

My body has the most PERFECT TIMING ever! I fall sick one day before going to prefects camp... So potong wei... I'll be going, but I'll also be worrying about ALOT of other things... And since my health hasn't been good lately, mental stress wouldn't be too good...

Need to relax from eveything... My mom's balik kampung timing is always the worst... When I wanna stay at home, she says have to go back... When I wanna leave town, she says she has work... Haiz...

Lately I've been getting blackouts... Real serious ones... But they last about 1-2 seconds... Almost got hit by a car because of one of them blackouts though... On Monday, ran in the rain because I passed the umbrellas to Jo Yee and Di Wern. Didn't really have a choice. Cause the umbrellas were so small, I knew that they would get wet if I squeezed in with either one. BTW, there were 2 umbrellas. And Jo Yee was already sick, so I walked on with my MU cap.

In tuition, had so many problems... Blackouts+rib cramps... So mafan... Plus whole week I've been stressing out about stupid problems which I cant tell anyone... So stupid... Need to leave town for at least a week to forget all about it wei...

ARGH!!!

Phei Fern's Sexy 16

SO! If you have read Phei Fern's blog recently, you should know that Di Wern and I threw a surprise birthday party for her on Monday. Credits mostly go to Di Wern because she did most of the work. All I did was call Phei Fern's mom and come up with certain small ideas.

ANYWAYS! The list of people who came are on Phei Fern's blog so I will not repeat... I am making this post for Phei Fern's sake because she asked for someone else to blog about it... Lol...

So Phei Fern met Jo Yee and I at Starbucks, SS2 at about 3 while I was having my coffee. Since Di Wern and the rest needed more time to prepare, I took my own sweet time to finish the coffee. Actually I was rushing it because they were almost done and I had 3 quarters left of a venti mocha frap...

When I finished the coffee, we left Starbucks and went along to Swensens. As we reached the doors, I covered Phei Fern's eyes and Jo Yee opened the door for her to go in. Then... Well you can roughly guess... But the funny part was! As some of them said 'SURPRISE!', Phei Fern said something that made me laugh my ass off... Go ask her about it... HAHA!

So she opened her presents and we ate... Hmm.... Im really lazy... So we'll skip the rest. Over-all, I got wet and got so cold to the point I got rib cramps almost every minute...

Anything else please inform me...

First day of the week, mood total change!

WOOOOO!!!! Freaking happy! First time I managed to cancel off my fear of Jason in sparring! Damn happy that I managed to beat both Yuen Hung and Jason. But Im really surprised at the same time. Never thought it would happen. I might have lost to Yuen Hung if he didn't have a fever. BUT! I will train even harder to not have such a hard time! I WILL OWN! I wanna be able to beat BEH HUAI JUN! MUAHAHA!

WATCH ME GROW TO BECOME UNSTOPPABLE!!!(I hope I spelled that correctly)

WOOOO

I dont know why, but this week has been a week full of me being pissed... My mood hasn't been good at all for the past 4 days or so... The Facebook thing Im ok already, but still keeping it in mind lar... Need more time to take it off. Getting ditched by a close friend for her boyfriend doesn't feel nice. I actually DO think I really am mad at you... But I'll be fine in afew more days... Just NEVER EVER do it again... No matter how important he may be to you, always understand that without your friends, you'll crash and burn.



Then there's my mom being pissed this whole week too. When she's pissed, it's like the WHOLE house becomes angry... EVERYTHING goes wrong...

Im pissed at another girl also for doing something knowingly, but unintentionally. If that's even possible... Haiz... Just hope the person having the BIGGEST problem with her will tell her soon.

Im also pissed at something which I will not talk about because everytime I think about it, I get even more pissed...

So yeah... I've been pissed the whole week... Sad right?

You drifted...

You can't say it's my fault. I wanted to help you when the brother called me. But because you never told me shit, I couldn't help you OR him. If only you had updated me. I asked you if he was there, and you said no. You FORCED me to go over. To PROTECT him, I MYSELF had to come over to your place. I dont want to care if you're mad at me. Just know that now, because of his mistakes. His lies... What's so fucking wrong about telling the truth??!! Unless he had promised YOU to not tell his brother anything, then it's your fault. Not his.

But whatever has happened, just know that now, NEITHER OF YOU have someone to call 'kor'. I am very sad to say this. I dont want to lose you. But you cut the ties even though I was trying to help your guy...
Estelle Kot, my brotherly love for you will not die. I will always be watching. I hope you understand how I feel now.

WOOOO

I haven't blogged in so long!!! I wonder why... Maybe cause I havent had the time.
So what's happened lately was.....
Hmmm.....

OH!!! Last week I helped Sifu with the rest of us EX people to clean up the new academy. SO SYOK! But my hands died for peeled for afew days after that... It's finally open but I haven't been there yet because I balik kampung on the day it opened... T.T
BUT IM GOING TOMORROW! WEEEEE

This week... I've been helping Ashikin for her permit camp. Cant remember why she's making one in the first place though. So what we did was help tie up all the wood to make tables and stuff... I LEARNED HOW TO TIE GIRL GUIDES' KNOTS!!! WOOOO

Lol... Im hyper... But later Im pretty sure Im gonna be freaking down...

IMAN! When are you gonna give me the info about where we're going for that event which I have NO CLUE WHATSOEVER? I need to ask my mom... Please hurry...