Declan's right...

Thanks Declan. Needed that.
Well, Im fine now. And thanks to Declan, I realize that the whole thing is a misunderstanding. Im sorry! So they few of you dont need to put this in your heads... Haha.

Again, thanks Declan.

Haiz...
Just to tell the few of you... It's VERY obvious that you people were out and met up and left me out of the picture yesterday. And when Gavin called me I was wondering what was the occasion... Considering that Ken was going... Which meant he had to already be out... When I called the 3 of you, all of you were out... So obvious lar...
I don't mind if you all dont invite for Starbucks or go outing or anything lar... But if you all invite me half way through your own outing and dont tell me the truth of what happened before I come, that just pisses me off... Seriously... And if you all didnt tell me because you thought that I would get mad, that makes it worse... Cause I would expect one or two of you to know how I would react by now... I wouldn't get mad... Im mad now only because I have the impression that you all didnt tell me the truth only because you thought I would get mad... Someone better tell me something before I go shooting everyone...

Sure, I did have fun yesterday. But now to think of it, I would rather that you people NOT invite me for outings if that's gonna happen again...

Stupid mood spoiling song...

I had such a good mood the whole day until I downloaded this ONE song that totally turned my mood around... I want to not listen to it, but because I have gone into emo-overdrive, I can't stop listening... And it's Ne-Yo... I can't turn my ears away from his voice... Damn nice voice and the song is nice also... BUT WHY??!!
The very minute I heard the song, my good mood kena potong damn badly... Zzz...
The name of the song is Part Of The List by Ne-Yo... ARGH!!!

IT'S OVER!!!

I no longer have a sleeping disorder. The gruesome 3 weeks or so seem VERY stupid now. MUAHAHA! CONGRATULATE ME!!!

I have a sleeping disorder T.T

Someone teach me how to sleep please... It's like body has totally forgotten how to go to sleep... Cause lately I haven't been able to sleep much... I've been sleeping at about 4am on a daily basis... I have no idea why I can't sleep. It's like my body is restless when my mind is extremely tired. Then when my body is tired, my mind is restless... SO MAFAN!!!
So someone... Please teach me how to take care of this...

The day has come

I feel very proud of myself. Im feel that Im finally over her. No offence to you, but I really feel glad that Im over you. Maybe anger has finally pushed the feeling away. And hopefully it NEVER comes back.

You called me at 1.28A.M. this morning just to ask if Im okay. The only reason I actually said 'Yeah, I am' was because I just woke up... How can you expect me to be okay after all the crap I go through? Thankfully, Im much more calm now. So if you want to know what happened, I would be GLAD to explain.

I really miss you.

Yesterday night or rather this morning at about 1.30a.m. I thought of you. I dont know why I thought of you. Was it because of the emotional breakdown from yesterday afternoon? Or was it because you popped into my mind and I just continued thinking? I dont think I want to know. I cried so much because I thought of this one person who is very important to me. Before I continue, I would like to apologize to Jo Yee, a very good friend of mine. As I promised the night before that I would call her if I needed to talk about anything at all. Im sorry Jo Yee. I didn't call. I didn't want you to hear me cry. Im sorry.

I really miss you. And in a few months time, I think you would forget almost everything about me. You gave me something that I always wanted to feel. Last year, I gave up on even hoping I would feel that emotion which God knows what you call it. But thanks to you, I finally had the chance to feel it. And Im glad and thankful because you allowed me to. Thank you for that. All that's left now is one question.

Will you remember me as the boy who loved you or as the boy who gave you comfort? Or will you even remember me in months to come?

Doesn't matter. All that matters is as long as you remember me and know that I love you, it's good enough. I hope that you know that it's you Im talking about when you read this post.

Last but not least, thanks for everything.