I feel like crap...

Wanna know why? Go ahead and ask me personally and see whether I tell you or not. I feel so pathetic...

I always doubt my choices for certain things like whether to stay back or not or whether to do my homework the night itself of just leave it for later...

I regeret alot of choices now... I know that regretting is pointless, but still, what's wrong with thinking about the past? Im sure everybody wishes that they could have changed something they did...

I would definitely love to change my stupid decision to bring my phone to school one Saturday when there was class and I was at a competition held in our school... If I didn't bring it, I would have saved myself from tons of stress... Now I have to continuously watch my back... It's frustrating...

Now I have to totally balance out friends, family, Taekwondo, prefects AND studies... I never used to have studies to balance... Never did... But now F4 is so different... I cant' skip all my classes for spot checks anymore... It's so so bloody annoying when I cant do that...

I need to burst... It's been real long since I last burst... Hopefully I can do so tonight so I can get rid of feeling pathetic...

Im light enough to fly!

I FEEL LIKE I CAN FLY! Not because Im happy though... Because I got something off my chest... Like finally... Dont know how long the weight has been there, but it feels good to let it out.

I really do hope nothing changes. = )

I miss everyone... T.T

Well, I got into 4IX... The second sub science class... I was alittle worried in the beginning. But now I've seem to become fond of everything... And my dreams of becoming a doctor seems to have vanished over-night... But at the same time, I am totally lost as to what Im gonna do in the future... So I guess I'll continue in sub-science since my appeal definitely can't get through.

The bad part is, 4IX is starting to seep into me... No idea why though... Maybe cause I laughed about 70% of the time in class today... Laugh meaning laugh until my stomach hurts kinda laugh...

So after school Gavin, Chee Seng and I went to buy our books... The line, like yesterday, was long... We waited a total of 1 hour and 15 minutes to get to the front of the line and buy the books... After that, the 3 of us walked back home after having a small meal in the canteen...

When I reached home, I saw a pair of shoes that definitely belonged to a girl but not my sister... I was wonder who it could be. When my sister came to open the door for me, I asked her who the owner was and why is she at our house... Who knew, the moment I stepped into my house I was shocked to see my OTHER sister in the house... And she didn't tell me before coming... ESTELLE!!! NEXT TIME INFROM ME PLEASE!!!

So we played Pictionary. And talked and listened to music. She went back home at about 6... Then Danielle suddenly pops-up from the window of the car and says: ' Have you been touching my sister?' I was so shocked to see her... 2 months after not seeing nor talking to her. It's very nostalgic. Haha.

So after that I went to do my Add Maths homework. Still easy, FOR NOW! I had originally planned to reach back home at 3.30pm(which I did do), get cleaned up and eat alittle bit by 3.45pm, and sleep for about 15-30 minutes from there on and do the homework after waking up. Estelle, Estelle... Potong me only. But I had fun and didn't emo today thanks to you. SO!

THANKS ESTELLE! I will make it up to you somehow.

After finishing my homework, ate MCD, came online, sewed a session tag onto my new shirt, ironed some clothes and blogged.

That's all for today. Not sure when Im gonna blog again. BYE

Great last day

Spent my final day of the year with my mom and sister. We went to Mid Valley. The only reason I went was to shop for afew shirts and a new pair of shoes because I have been using the same pair of shoes to go out with friends for maybe 3-4 years already.



So we left the house at about 11am to go to my mom's office cause she had some small thing to do. HER OFFICE IS SO COOL!!! No idea why I think that way though. Haha. At about 1 we left for Mid Valley and I went to get the tickets for Sherlock Holmes at 7pm. I stood in line for maybe 45 minutes? The line was really long.



So after that, I went to Metrojaya to look for some shirts. EVERYTHING WAS STRIPES!!! I HATE! wearing horizontally striped shirts. So I didn't get anything. I couldn't even find myself some shoes... So in the end, I got a new shirt for my dad and my mom and sister got some stuff for themselves. Then after that had dinner. And yes... We spent ALOT of time in Metrojaya. At least 5 hours? Then we had dinner.



AFTER DINNER! We watched Sherlock Holmes. The seats were 2 rows from the screen but it was fairly comfortable. THE MOVIE SO NICE! Just that the ending is potong. Though I might like it only because I read Sherlock Holmes stories... Works of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle ONLY!!!



So after the movie. We were on our way to the the parking lot. It was almost closing time when I passed by the sports shop and saw a nice pair of shoes. I immediately went over to the sales-person and got my size. Didn't even try it on. Just got it and went off. And guess what? It's one size bigger than my current pair of shoes. So Im totally fine with it.



So we came back and I rushed to take a bath. Haha. Im very paranoid about feeling fresh... I feel weird if I walk to school because I start the day off sweaty... So mafan.



And now Im here at the computer blogging. I hope that the coming year is a good one. I not that this year was bad. I like it alot even though there were alot of bad times. Made alot of new friends. Gained alot of things. The bad stuff, I dont really care anymore. SO HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!



Gonna host a Skype call now. Im off from blogger for now. Bye

Apparently, I'm feeling much better than I thought I would be. So cool right?

Something very interesting happened today. DI WERN PLAYED DOTA WITH ME! She's only just a beginner so don't ask her to dota with you unless she wants to. And please dont let her dota with the public... Well, she and I took and and easy AI so I could teach her the basic stuff. What she knows how to do now is walk, attack, run, and buy treads and scrolls. Not to mention tangos. So she doesnt know how to use skills and she doesnt really know why she can level up either. Nor does she know what items to buy. So if possible, someone go to her place and teach her please. So she can have more fun. We beat the AI and she was so happy. LOL!
ANYWAYS!

Congratulations Di Wern, and thanks. You made my day.

Sorry Declan.

Im sorry about that. This is the first time I have been put into this kind of situation before. I guess because my immaturity sort of made me take it out on you. I couldn't control myself. Im sorry. Hope you can forgive me. I also hope that I can control it by tonight. If not I might not talk to anyone. Lol.



Im sorry, Declan.

Feelings just dont disappear when you want them to

I need some time to remove these feelings. 2 days at the very least. So hopefully I'll be fine for New Year's.

For someone who loves to be in the middle, you know who you are. Sometimes people dont want someone in the middle to help them. I totally know how JW feels now. So next time when I tell you that you have no idea what is going on, just shut up and stop it ok? Thank you.